The main reasons and things what drive me to create were always as an alienation between my personality and society and tabu for words to express my point of view and connection to my memories. Tabu for words doesn’t mean that I don’t have a right to say something and especially to hurt someone’s feelings but to bring calamity to my fate as primal fear. In case If thoughts are material and can harm your soul and body how can I deal with struggling in my mind- I’ve asked myself. And every time when I was reflecting on these questions I heard the ambient soundscapes.
And during the another day of thinking I hatched the idea what if I connect my fear with memory and soundscapes in one digital canvas? Since then I started to link my videos and my own ambient produced sounds and the same time expressing what I allocated and was frightned about something fatal and avoiding straight speech of tabu words for myself.
